This is in follow up to my post about rejection. I wanted to say one more thing after working through some some heavy emotions tonight and doing some inner healing.
Your emotions or feelings of rejection don’t have to determine your identity.
Often times when we are feeling rejected or hurting it actually can show on our countenance. I believe this can often times effect how we and others see and feel around us.
I was praying with a close friend tonight through some deeper roots in my past related to shame and rejection that I struggle with. The Lord gave my friend an image of portrait of a women who represented the women from generation to generation in our family line. As my friend spoke this, I was reminded of a vision from years ago where I saw myself in a mirror like a portrait, except all around me was an audience (almost courtroom or counsel) of previous generations standing in judgement and anger and even shame towards me and my future generations. I felt like they were projecting judgement and even curses against myself and my future generations just by how I felt and saw them. It honestly at the time was overwhelming. I had a sense this was like a twisted version of the cloud of witnesses. I asked God what he wanted to do with this vision/image and he spoke this blessing over me.
“The Lord bless you and keep you; the Lord make his face to shine upon you and be gracious to you; the Lord lift up his countenance upon you and give you peace.”
Numbers 6:24-26 ESV
I had a sense that this blessing was being poured over me like it was being poured over Aaron and his sons and that the blessing was God’s countenance was not only a blessing but it was also a filter that started from this moment and filtered out the curses and only releases the blessings over myself and both past, present, and future Generations in how I saw this image again. God’s countenance of blessing would be what remains in us. Even how I see those from previous generations is through His eyes and his countenance.
What does he give us with this blessing? His peace!
Here is another scripture that really stands out related to this:
“For now we see but a faint reflection of riddles and mysteries as though reflected in a mirror, but one day we will see face-to-face. My understanding is incomplete now, but one day I will understand everything, just as everything about me has been fully understood. Until then, there are three things that remain: faith, hope, and love—yet love surpasses them all. So above all else, let love be the beautiful prize for which you run.”
1 Corinthians 13:12-13 TPT